Bridge-burning complete.

I've backed out of every game I was part of on pishoque, and have informed the guild at large that I'm retiring.

I've got two things left in my life to destroy.

I'll keep the job.

One thing left.

Ever have one of those days?

I woke up, and wasn't feeling well, so called in and went back to sleep. That was nice, and I felt a bit better when I woke up.

I cleaned my house. Over the last few days I've actually gotten it pretty clean. I'm happy about that....

But I'm cleaning to escape other issues, I think. I'm not happy. And I'm not sure why. :/

I canceled my World of Warcraft account today. Rez told me he was leaving the guild. I forget what he said.

I thought he meant that I sucked at gaming and leading the guild -- our guild is too small to do raids, and what would Rez want to do with a level 34 guild master when he's got two characters that are already higher level?

I forget where I was going with this. I'm depressed. Really depressed. I don't know why.

I have until the subscription runs out. That's in another month and a half or so.

And they let you renew if you change your mind later.

I mentioned it to the guild.

They reacted the same way. So I guess the entire thing is a meaningless guilt- trip on my part, and I didn't even realize it.

Probably best I don't play.

Can't lose control and accidentally snipe people if I'm not online.

Positive thinking.

I'll have more free time without WoW, I guess. I'd write fanfiction, but I don't think my fics are that great, and it's kind of sad that it's the only thing I'm good at.

Can't shake off the depression. I guess I'll meditate.

Graaaaaawr.

I said "I quit" today.

I think I meant it, too.

But not right away. I need to find another job, first. But I can't continue working for a company that has an uptime-dependant service if they have daily outages. This isn't about preserverence, it's about masochism at this point. Sure. It might get better one day, but right now, I'm suffering.

I can't handle being responsible for things that I can't fix. And it's not that I don't know how to do my job ... it's that it's not my department that's causing this. It's just my department that has to deal with it.

So. Let's flaunt that inability to hold a job, Brian, and get to work looking for a new employer!

I don't hate my life. But I'm sure getting unhappy with some things in it.

Test-results in. Final analysis: Time to buy a new MB/CPU.

;_;

Oh, wait. An excuse to buy new equipment.

On payday.

^_^

Man I'm slow. Long time between updates. There have been some issues, though....

Basically, my schedule at work was really hectic (they just changed it to a Tuesday-Saturday, 6:00 AM to 3:00 PM shift), until they gave me a new one, which I like much better. I played quite a bit of WoW last month, but lately have been having computer trouble.

So. Randomly while playing WoW, my computer will reboot. I've been told (and come to understand) that spontaneous reboots are usually due to hardware issues. Windows does have a setting (XP does, anyway) that makes your system reboot itself when it blue-screens, but I have that turned off.

Initially, when this happened, it would reboot and say, "Windows has recovered from a serious error!" and then the error reporting window comes up. I hit 'send' just for kicks, and it comes back with: "Microsoft has a solution for this!" (or words to that effect). I ignore that, and dismiss it as a fluke.

Five or so reboots later, and I'm noticing that it seems to happen when my Hunter character is being played (though different things are happening every time it goes on, it seems to happen when I'm in combat). I decide that most likely what's going on is linked to the gunshot sound-effect, and either the MPQ file is corrupted and haxxoring my system, or something's wrong with my sound card.

So, for kicks, the next time Microsoft warns me I'm recovering from a serious error, I click on their link, and it tells me my Audigy drivers are hosed. I go to Creative, but their site is an assult on constructive driver aquisition, and I eventually just settled for reinstalling the drivers from the CD.

Problem still happens, only now Windows is saying it doesn't know what causes it when I hit send. Funny.

Next step is uninstalling the entire card, and buying a new sound card. I like to refer to the model as "The Audi'Better-be-the-last-god-damned-sound-card-I -need-to-buy!'gy 2." Why buy from a company that I was already having trouble with? Well ... I'm told they're the best there is. -_-

Anyway, problem not only persists, but becomes more prevalent. Now it randomly happens when I'm not playing WoW at all. I figure it's still a sound card issue, though.

Then last night, it starts happening while I'm using Word and iTunes at the same time. Annoying, because I want to finish writing a fanfic, but my computer keeps rebooting/shutting down and erasing all my work. Yey. -_-

I try running just Word, and don't use anything that uses sound on my system. Reboots anyway.

Now, I have considered the NIC card (already been replaced) the RAM (tested good!), the sound card (replaced) and the video card (is Word that taxing to a GeForce 4 Ti4600 when hours of WoW aren't? O_o?). Next in line to be tested: The CPU/MB.

After that, I replace the PSU, which I am not looking forward to (messy, messy!).

Good times!